Well....
I went to my parents house where they were supposedly having a party for my birthday but as it turned out it was a general party and my brother got blasted by my mother for saying to one of the couples there, "Thank you for coming to my brothers birthday party". Apparently my mother felt that it would have made the people uncomfortable knowing that they were at a birthday party for me and not bring a present. I thought they certainly couldnt feel as uncomfortable as I felt by her blasting my brother for trying to be sociable and nice to people.
Then I found out that my brother was given a new car about 6 months ago by my parents. About a little less then a year ago my mother had told both my brother and myself that when they sold their last auto dealership that they would try to give us each a new car. Apparently they gave my brother a new car but not me. I'm really hurt by this because specifically my brother has been the problem child, involved in drugs since the age of 16, screwing up the family all the time, my mother has never had anything good to say about him and yet they decided that they would give him a car, but not myself even though she told us both that we would basically be getting a new (or rather one of the demo cars) car when the dealership was sold.
So I asked my brother last xmas if he got a new car yet, and he told me no, and asked if I had and I told him no. Apparently he must have been told by my mother not to let me know that they gave him the car, probably because he lived in Florida so they figured I'd never find out about it. Little did they realize that he would move back to this area and bring back the new car with him.
This really saddens me and really really hurts me that they would do this. Meanwhile on Mothers day I sent my mother $100+ dollars in beautifuly white roses and she lashed into me that I didn't care, otherwise I would have taken her out to lunch or something like that for mothers day. She told me how much it hurt her that I didn't care to even do this. The reason why I didn't is because my dad always takes her away for mothers day and they go do something special between themselves so why was I to think this year would be any different. If she thinks she's been hurt by this, she has no idea what hurt is by giving my brother a new car, she has hurt me tremendously. (more so since I really could use a newish car since my car is starting to cost me a great deal of money in maintenenace and repairs the last several months).
She's getting on a plane for Europe today or tommorrow and they are going away for about a month on travel, since my grandmother passed away in March, they now say that they have no reason to not go away for a month and have a vacation since they don't have to worry about my grandmother having complications and can now enjoy themselves. Maybe by the time they return the hurt will be lessened but at the moment, I consider myself without parents. It may sound selfish and that I am spoiled but this just hurts me because my mother is one of those people that has so so much and promises so so much to everybody around her but then rarely does she make good on those promises. She holds things out in front of people like a carrot in front of a mule to get them to bend to her will and when that doesn't work she disowns them for not bending to her will. Sammy use to adore my mother and thought she was a very special lady, but after this birthday she really despises her. She told me that if my mother starts acting up at the party against me that she will leave, with or without me, but she preferred that I leave with her of course. I finally agreed with her that if my mother started to bag on me then we would leave. Sammy almost left after my mother layed into my brother but I held her arm and she knew it wasn't enough that we should leave just yet.
Okay so thats enough of the bad part of the birthday......
The next day, Sammy took me up the palm springs arial tramway, where we must have hiked about 5 miles in the wilderness area up there. We both had a great time and both of us woke up extremely sore this morning. She got me tickets to see Morrisey in Riverside for my birthday. We go to the concert sometime the first week in June and I'm really looking forward to it.
She also suprised me last night when she took Weston out for a walk and came back with a birthday cake. Apparently she had contacted our mutual friend Jeff who owns a bakery here in town and had him make me up one of his upside down pineaple cakes. Which is out of this world. So when she took Weston for a walk she walked up to his house which is only a couple blocks away and picked up the cake. She knows how much I love his upside down pineaple cakes, so that was a real treat.
We took lots of photos while up at the top of the mountain which sits about 10,834' above sea level. It was kind of hard to breathe up there for some reason but we had a great time.
Anyway, that was my 2 birthday days. It used to be really great for my birthday to fall on May 27th because it's usually gave me a 4 day weekend what with memorial day and what not.
Hope you all had a great memorial day weekend.
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